Stoopid GingerCat!

i was unhappy today..but not anymore at the present..juz dunno y wat happened can turn into somethin so serious..

i met up wif gingercat today..it's been a long time i've seen him..n yet somethin bad has to happen.

first of all, i tink there're some misunderstandings here n there n i will apologise for watever things i've done wrong. although i still feel that askin qns is part of my kaypo nature, n it's not the first day u jnow mi, i apologise if this gives u some stress. i really din know that wat i did was stressful. but den again, next time i tink i will ask less questions => goin against my own will => i'll be unhappy. so it's not a win-win situation. either one of us will be upset. so how? =S

today, i met u n ur face was black. ok, sorry for being late for ten mins but the thing is we still dunno where to go to get the things from ur fren, so no matter i'm there at the exact time or whether i'm late will make a difference. anyway i'm late better wat, since u can enjoy more stress-free moments. (oops, so spiteful..) but i'm still sincerely sorry for being late. will try to change this idiotic habit of mine. but i dun like it when u said everyone made u wait today. I AM I. u can blame mi for being late but dun put other's responsibilities onto mi..i was so angry when i heard u say that. almost replied that if u r not willing to wait den next time dun go out again loh. but i controlled it a couple of times, cos i know if i said it, u will be furious. n it is NOT my fault tt ur fren made u wait n dun answer ur calls. i tot i was being nice when i offered to keep u company. looks like it's better off without mi being there.

anyway, i really dun mind the waitin but i wan to know wat had happened beforehand. that's y all the questions. i believe we could had handled it in a happier way, n i tot my presence can make u feel better, or we can joke to make time pass easier. but NO. ur face is still black. n u give one-word replies to my questions. i was gettin more n more angry n decided that i rather face the wall den look at you. the ultimate was when i asked u wat the company name was, n u impatiently said "*** LAH~"..wah, i was so pissed off so i went away. becos:

1) said liao, i was pissed
2) i dun wan to see u smilin n tokin happily the moment u meet ur fren. i feel so unimportant! u can smile to a new-found fren n u give mi a black face! (this is the main reason y i dun go up)
3) i dun wan to smile at someone (cos both mi n gingercat's fren msg each other b4 but today will be the first time we meet each other) when i'm feelin pissed..no mood to put up a front. it's rarely i do this, cos i'm quite a good hypocrite who can hide my feelings well. see how pissed i was?

after some time things got better. but later gingercat asked mi why i din acknowledge them when they walked pass mi..for goodness sake, i really din see u, n y didn't u call mi or wave in front of mi? n y did u doubt my words tt i din see u two? din know tt this was ur impression of mi. so disappointed.

aiyah, anyway i was quite upset abt all these lah, bo dai bo ji genna all these. n nobody cares if i reach home or not. i dun wan to tok (as in, converse) abt wat happened today anymore, so gingercat if u feel the need to clarify anythin, if u care to, pls send an email or wat. to avoid arguements. in my opinion this is a stoopid thing n it's not worth for us to quarrel abt. frens forever.

(by the way, let u all know a secret of mine..cpt tiger listen up k! =p..when i'm angry hor, my sentences will mostly end wif full-stops..otherwise i'll end wif two dots..haha..applies to SMS too..eg,

HAPPY LING: wah, really ah? haha..so funny..ok, meet up another time k..take care! :)
ANGRY LING: ok. u go ahead. i dun tink i wan to go anymore. u enjoy urself loh. take care.

funny rite..haha..i oso dunno y i'm like tt..hmm..did anyone notice the numerous full-stops i've used above? yet i claimed i'm not angry rite..haha..i'm not angry lah, juz tt tinkin of those things make mi pek chek at that veri moment when i'm typin the stuff, that explains all the full-stops..=p)

got to go n zzz..tomolo hav to wake up at 8am to go collect my passport..nites. :)

I've Killed Somebody!

it's been a really long time since i blog..(sounds familiar hor? haha..)..well, actually i wasn't in the mood of bloggin recently, dunno y..but i believe i'll make a comeback soon! mayb cos these days keep goin out..no time to blog..din felt like bloggin till juz now somethin bloody happen..LOOK!~@@



i juz killed somebody! omg~ dun report to the police k?! haha..i was jokin lah..juz managed to killed a super duper big mosquito..felt so proud of it man! who ask it to keep flying in front of mi..suck so much of my blood too..*feelin faint*

hmm..how many of u actually believe my crap above? haha..where got such a big mosquito..if got, i'll sure run away ah..haha..actually so much blood on my palm cos i juz now scratch my leg den dunno y blood keep comin out..cpt tiger goin to scold mi for scratchin again..anyway, here's the wound! (wif the whole leg censored cos it's too ugly to be put on the blog..i got elephant legs)



no strength to blog liao..haha..juz wanna share somethin wif u all that dun happens everyday..i goin to zzz liao! tata!~~ :)

Ouch!~

cpt tiger went to hav two of his wisdom teeth removed at alexandra hospital two days ago..n it was so bloody..he was spittin blood onto tissue papers every now n den n i tink the auntie beside him on the bus was really scared cos it seems like he's dying..haha..although she sort of pretended that she din see anythin lah..haha..but it pains mi when i see him spittin blood out everytime, esp when the blood trickles out of his mouth..i really hope i wun hav to go thru this, though most prob i would..sigh..

hav u went thru the operation before? the people there makes u change into somethin veri cute..a shower cap, a striped bathrobe, n furry slippers..haha..actually i took pics of cpt tiger in this outfit but i tink he'll kill mi if i put those photos on the internet for everyone to see..haha..so let's compromise n i juz show u the furry slippers k? here it is! :)



cute rite..besides this hor, i took a pic of a toilet bowl at AH..veri nicely done..the whole toilet was wif the theme of nature n the cubicle i went to hav a toilet bowl cover decorated like the ocean, although it's green in colour..there are fishes n lots of seashells on it..



that's all for my adventure at AH..hee..next to my replies for wat dom said on the chatterbox..:)

: huh? $4k and u wan to get married???? fwah...... serious or not?
=> if possible i'm serious..hee..cos i only want to take nice nice photos n dun wan to hav a weddin dinner, so can save a lot of money liao mah! but on the practical side, it seems impossible lah hor..but my parents do approve of a honeymoon weddin lah, n my bro's weddin package (photos, gowns, make-up etc) is only $2800, that leaves us $1200 for parents' meet-up dinners, ROM, meal after ROM..shld b enuff lah! haha..of cos, i'm dreamin..ignore mi..=p

: n dat turtle... haiz.. lucky he has someone like u.. he is like one day nv quarrel he will die lor... damn jialat...
=> haha..i veri long neber quarrel wif him loh! cos now seldom meet up liao..but i oso dunno y he always like to quarrel..haha..but den again he has a side of him that's not so kao bei, but i dunno when will he allow himself to let that side of him to appear in front of others..feel that he's quite defensive..scared to be hurt..haha..dunno y leh..

: n u dun owe dat turtle aniting lor.... cpt is not anything, he is not an object. n certainly not something owned by turtle to give u....
=> thanks for sayin this..hee..so touched..u r rite in sayin this, but somehow cpt tiger n i viewed him as our benefactor n mayb we'll give him a big ang pow during our wedding! but still far away lah..haha..

: not bad lar... ur PS skill... maybe next time u can get me to help u.... me the one who help tai to edit his passport foto..hahhaahaa
=> ok ok! thank u! haha..i was forced to produce the photo..but dunno if the authority will accept a self-printed photo for the passport leh..hopefully they wun scratch the photo before they scan onto the passport..the ink really come off veri easiy..tai send his application online or really send a photo? :)

: epson printer is ex.....
=> really? dunno much abt printer prices but i was quite impressed wif the epson's durabrite ink..my printer costs mi $199..that's y i tot the quality of the photos shld be better since it's a photo printer..haha..now everytime i print out a photo i got to use laminatin paper to go over it..*faints*..haha..stoopid rite..

I'm back! Miss mi? =p

wow..i felt that i've not blog for donkey years..

shall we start wif how i celebrate my birthday? hee..u can't oppose anyway..so here goes!

cpt tiger stayed overnite at my house the nite before my birthday..so sweet of him..u might not know this, but my room is a poison chamber for cpt tiger cos it's too dirty..haha..n cpt tiger is allergic to dust..wah, the stay almost killed him man..ok ok, i exaggerated..but hor, his throat is still irritable today..i felt so guilty..if i knew earlier, i would hav asked him to go home..so sorry..=(

well, supposedly cpt tiger n i were goin to fly kite at west coast park on 6th feb..but heaven decided to play a joke on mi..it was rainin heavily for the whole afternoon so i can't go anywhere..SIGH~..end up cpt tiger n i watched Internal Affairs 2 at home..which was oso ok lah..juz tt we can't go out only..after the show we went to find some stuff for mel's (rem who she is? cpt tiger's chinchilla! =p) cage..cos i wanted mel to move house on my birthday..memorable mah! (i bought a cage as a gift to cpt tiger as a valentine's present..real unromantic rite..haha..)..den after tt we went to eat the famous nasi lemak near my house before goin over to his house..but hor, when we reached his house, we realised he left his leys at my house n there's no one at home..end up we got to go hawker centre cos i wanted to watch SNAP by channel U..haha..i'm a loyal fan of this show..quite a special birthday lah..normal yet special..n guessed wat i got out of this whole event? a key to cpt tiger's house! hee..although he gave it to mi juz in case he forgets his keys next time, but i feel like it's some sort of status given to mi man! haha..like i'm the co-owner of his house=> i can go there anytime i wan=> he trusts mi=> oh i feel like his wife! haha..dunno y but i'm in some sort of wanting-to-get-married-mood cos my bro juz ROM on 7th feb..haha..cpt tiger muz be tinkin tt i'm siao cos i kept tellin him once we earned $4000 we can get married..hope i dun scared him off though..ahha...

oh, here's a pic of cute cute mel..:)



today my dad n mum kao bei abt mi not renewing my passport..but i can't do it yet cos i dun hav a photo wif a white background..so we sort of quarrelled cos they started to nag once i reached home..so frustratin..missed cpt tiger so much den..but din call him lah..tomolo he goin to operate on two of his wisdom teeth so i better let him rest..but wat to do..i really dun hav photo wat..how to post the renewal letter..*sob sob*

den hor, my briiliant bro told mi i could take pic wif my digital cam n print it out..i tink it works lah, except that the ink of the photo came out veri easily..i tink i muz change to a better printer, mayb epson ones wif durabrite ink! haha..but strange leh, my printer supposedly is a good photo printer..so next time if u wan to buy a printer to print photo hor, make sure the ink dun come out easily k..back to the photo..in order to get a ok pic, i put on make-up n a shirt when it was almost midnite n started to take pics of myself..siao rite..i tried takin my own pics for a few times but it's not workin..can't get a nice pic..ahha..let mi show u..



can see my hand holdin the cam n i'm not lookin at the lens? aahah..veri funny rite..so stoopid..in the end i got to wake my bro up n ask him to help mi take one proper photo..he took two n i was too paiseh to bother him any longer so i guess i got to make do wif wat i had..in the end after some photoshop editin of the background colour (got to change it to white) n croppin..i got this..



not bad for a first-timer rite! haha..egostic..oh, cpt tiger told mi he reads my blog afterall! only that he dun reads it everyday, mayb some sort of weekly thingy..hee..at least he still reads wat i write lah hor..so glad! so happy! *smiles*..n another good news..juz now turtle told mi via icq tt he bought mi a birthday present..such a pleasant surprise..haha..looks like we get to exchange presents this yr..speakin of him reminds mi of a meaningful conversation we had..

*turtle n mi always squabble..so as usual, we were arguing..*

turtle: i tink XXXXXXX
mi: no lah..i bet wif u watever u wan that wat u said was wrong.
turtle: so wat if i owe u anythin if i'm wrong..u can't repay mi wat u owe mi!
mi: i where got owe u anythin! u say lah, where got!
turtle: got..cpt tiger.

wah, when he said this hor, i immediately become speechless..haha..seems like i really owe him somethin i can neber repay..cos without turtle, cpt tiger n i would not hav met..well, after this incident i promised myself to treat him better n dun argue wif him so much..but hor, later i realised tt our frenship thrives on arguin wif each other, cos we both know the anger wun last..haha..so this shall continue! anyway now seldom see him liao cos he's occupied wif some involvement in an organisation..seems like he's found his footin there..all the best to him..:)

A Touching Story

From the very beginning, girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background and the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?" As the guy is not good with his words, this often causes the girl to be very upset.

With that and the family's pressure, the girl often vents her anger on him. As for him, he only endures it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated and decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, and with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in and agreed to let them get married. So before he leaves, they got engaged. The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love thru emails and phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice... The doctor says that the impact on her brain has caused her to loss her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry, it's still just silence cry that accompanied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same, except for the ringing tone of the phone. This pierced into her heart every time it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know and not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions and millions of reply, countless of phone calls. All the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying... The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything and be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learns sign language and started a new life. Telling her everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came and told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed and her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. Girl was shattered. When she opens the letter, she saw her name in it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her.

He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. "I Love You." With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled."


*Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know how to give.
*Treat every moment as is it's the last day, and then you'll know how to treasure.

Personality Test

i juz took a personality test from this website..n here r the results..

You're an ESFP

ESFP
You're a fun-loving outgoing person and are naturally drawn to people...you are quite enthusiastic and exuberant...and usually well-liked by others.. you're good at meeting people and helping them enjoy themselves...you are sympathetic towards people and generous with your time and money. You wanna be where the action is and will see things in your own special way...

You're aware what is going on around you and notice stuff that others miss. You're popular and gregarious and are often busy in social stuff...you are instigators of activity and like to be "where the action is..."...you like laughing at yourself and others....you like to help others and often join organizations that letcha do that..if you work as a teenager, chances are that you'll take a job that lets you interact with others (gift shop, waiter, anywhere you can charm or shmooze)....you're "on stage" often...

You're the eternal optimist, and always seem to land on your feet, somehow. (gee, all this stuff shows you might be good in the Storm Palace pubs..) you can interact with people of all ages, backgrounds or types with no problem.. you learn best when you can interact with others and DO things, not just observe or listen about 'em... Teachers are the key to your success.. they have to care about you for you to want to do well..

You don't like conflict or intellectual arguments...you don't like learning by sitting quietly by yourself and reading some boring abstract stuff..."how does it relate to my day-to-day life?!" You know how to motivate others to get the job done...you can link together people and resources...you'd probably be happy being a coach or a receptionist or a therapist...anywhere you could help people and be responsive to 'em...you don't impose your will.

You like teamwork...you can get caught up in others' emotions.. your style is inclusive and allowing others to participate in the decisions..you don't need to suck up all the glory...you like to take breaks and relax..you love being active and going out and doing things with friends...

You're fun to be with and bring enjoyment to situations...you find fun in the moment...your friends are VERY important to you, and I'll bet you tell 'em so and let 'em know it somehow...you like to reach out and touch the lives of others...you like to share your values with those you love... you might move in or out of a relationship depending if it "feels" comfortable..you get kinda hampered with disapproval.. you can overwhelm your partner with all this affection and stuff...when there's a breakup, you can move on and get over it quickly, surrounding yourself with your friends...

Be careful on these: don't spend too much time socializing and not enough on the task at hand. You'll probably talk on the phone rather than work. Also, don't forget to finish what you start..get some planning skills and time management...don't ignore the logical facts, as much as you'd rather go by subjective stuff...finally, don't be so action-oriented that you forget to plan ahead...

ESFP: "Extra Special Friendly Person"

well, it's not exactly 100% accurate but i tink there r some truth in it..do try it urself when u can spare the time..hee..the last paragraph was damn accurate though..this explains y i'm still stuck wif my thesis..SIGH~

hi HF! :)

hi everyone! sorry for not bloggin these few days..cos i went to a chalet from friday onwards n i juz came back today! hee..it's a chalet wif my sec 1 & 2 frens..overall it was veri enjoyable cos i got to spend half of it wif cpt tiger alone n another half of it wif my closest frens..almost everyone has started work/busy wif projects/army but they still gave their support..i'm so happy! :)

chalet aside first..now i want to thank a fren from my sec 3 & 4 class..hmm..let's call her hf..hee..tink she'll know who she is when she reads my blog..i checked my mail today n found a friendster msd from her..this was wat she wrote:

"Hi Peiling, How r u? I kapo n went to ur blog site, very nice leh...vey nicely done. and the things u wrote very interesting...really wonder why ur bf dun read..maybe coz he already know what u going to write???? hehehe...Take Care. "

i tried replyin to her via friendster but it was DAMN SLOW.. before i reach the reply page, stoopid nus dial-up disconnected mi cos i was online for 2 hrs liao..anyway, i juz wanna thank hf for rememberin mi after so many yrs n i'm veri happy to receive her msg..thanks for the nice compliments! dun really deserve them..i oso dunno y cpt tiger dun wan to read leh..haha..dun tink he knows wat i'm writin up here..n there was a day when i was at his house n he sort of surf my blog n exclaimed tt i've written so many things liao n say he dun wan to read liao cos too many things..i quite sad at that moment..but dun force him to read lah hor..later it'll become an obligation..haha..how hav u been doin too? i still lazin ard..u shld be workin liao rite? can reply on my chatterbox on the right side of my blog if u wan to..hee..:)

i shall write abt my chalet thingy another time cos i goin to watch tv now! last but not least, yesterday (1st Feb) was dom's birthday if i din rem wrongly..HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY!! may all ur wishes come true..:)