*BEWARE*

today, i'm goin to write a blog to warn pple abt yahoo auctions..

there r DISHONEST pple sellin spoilt stuff n claimin it's new wif unfilled warranty..*faints* (ok lah, as if i dunno, but i din really knew it'll happen to mi..suay)

rem the benq dc 2300 camera i bought? well, let mi tell u all abt the whole deal..

when i first saw the person's contacts on the auction, i initiate to close the deal early if she (i knew it was a 'she' after msgin her) can offer a reasonable price..so she offered $100..well, supposedly $100 was a good buy cos if u check the prices of this camera online, they're sold between the range of $140-$200..average $150..but a couple of lucky chaps were able to get it at $100-$120..so i tot to myself, $100 => good buy => wah, i'm quite lucky => ok, i'll buy it from u. deal.

after settlin the deal, i was quite excited to collect the camera cos it has a LCD screen..my previous camera (the $40 one) is a good camera which i always bring when i go out, but it's sometimes a hassle with no LCD screen cos i dunno how my pics turn out until i upload them onto com..n most of the time they're TERRIBLE (cos i dunno how to use yet, not the camera's fault..it's able to take nice pics)..so here comes the day whereby i meet up wif the owner, or rather, the owner's husband..

when we (cpt tiger n i) meet up n checked the camera, it's quite obvious the camera was used before cos there're some minor scratches which couldn't be possibly on the camera unless they used the cam for a period of time..n look wat the owner says on yahoo auction:

"BENQ DC2300 digital camera. Brand new in box with unfilled warranty.Opened for trying purposes.Got it from Starhub promotion.Check my other auctions too.For enquiries sms 9009XXXX.Thanks."

wah! liar man! wat's worse was tt when we asked nicely if the cam was used before, the malay man kept denying it when obviously he was lyin thru his teeth (even when i said i'll buy it at the price we settled at even if they used it before..i juz wan to know the truth..wah kao)..moreover, i read up abt the cam n the package includes 2 batts but there were not inside the package..n when i asked him abt it, he kept claimin tt no batts were included when he got it from starhub..den i showed him wat the box says: "includes TWO AA BATTERIES"..n he still insisted his box dun comes wif batts..at tt moment we felt tt he was oredi dishonest but i tot it was ok if i paid slightly lesser than $100 for a second-hand cam..i dun really mind the scratches cos i was tinkin tt i'll feel less heartache if i ever scratch it myself..so i asked if he can sell it to mi at $95 instead n cpt tiger nudged mi gently..after the incident he told mi i shld hav offered lesser so tt can get a better price since the cam is not new..but anyway, the malay man seems to be hen-pecked n he says he can't make decisions..so he called his wife n i tok to her..last price was $90 (the wife was quite nice to negotiate wif cos she din seem to mind tt i asked for the price of $90..now den i know it's becos the cam is not workin properly..damn..i shld hav offered a lower price) so i paid him the money n we left..

n know wat? the camera's flash is SPOILT after a few hrs of testin n sucks batt like siao (mi n cpt tiger were amazed at the rate digi-cam uses batt)..everythin was ok when we tested so i dunno y this will happen in such a short while..i was terribly upset till i had no mood to tok to cpt tiger (sorry, dear, i shldn't hav done tt)..but i was consoled by the new battery charger n rechargeable batts cpt tiger bought for mi..(so sweet of him..i juz got the cam for a day n the next day he went to find charger for mi cos we had the impression tt the cam uses a lot of batt..thank u!)..back to the cam..everythin was wrong..flash wun come out, batt finishes in less den an hr..everythin went wrong..sigh..but luckily there's still warranty for the camera..so today we went down to benq HQ..n we had a happy endin.

the person exchanged a new set which works perfectly for us! without any arguments or wat-so-ever too! n he din even test if the probs we say were true! omg~

CONCLUSION: benq offers damn nice customer service. ~100% satisfied customer

n guess wat? i put back the used batts which supposedly r drained (when i put in the previous cam, it always show mi 'low batt' den auto switch off), the batt bar is full! means the cam dun really used up batt so fast..i was so glad..n i finally believe tt this model is energy-savin as claimed widely online..actually benq cams not bad..the $40 one (also benq) still haven't reached half bar from the day i bought it even though i took quite alot of pics..cheap cams, but value-for-money lah..mi cheapo girl. =p

so, in the end i got myself a totally new cam for $90..after some trouble of travellin to the benq HQ in super-duper heavy rain (lucky it was veri near cpt tiger's house..it's beside west coast park)..cpt tiger n i were damn wet..i was quite guilty abt makin him go thru this when i was the stoopid person who purchase a problem set via my latest addiction--yahoo auctions--..but he din mind at all..i am really thankful for findin such a patient bf like him who's willin to go thru tough times wif mi..:)

hmm..but i tink cpt tiger won't see wat i wrote here cos he dun read my blogs..sob sob..actually i dunno y he dun read wat i write..if i were him, i'll surely read it everyday juz to know wat's my partner tinkin n how he feels abt stuff..happy or sad..but he's not mi, so i can't control if he wans to read my blogs not..so let's juz leave it as tt..i shall write for my own pleasure den..

oh! by the way we saw the dishonest man when we were in my dad's car this evenin! my dad picked us up from cpt tiger house n when the car passed a traffic junction, the malay man was waitin to cross the road! (from wat we knew, his workplace is near cpt tiger's house)..such a coincidence rite! second episode of alexandra hospital..well, i was tinkin abt msgin the person tt it was wrong of them to be dishonest abt the whole deal but i can't manage to put it in words..but i really still feel like tellin them i knew they sold mi a lousy cam..

mayb i'll do it tomolo..but den again, most prob i wun..haha..i'm a coward..=X

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here r the pics of the necklace cpt tiger n i made in the bead class!

i shall show u cpt tiger's one cos his is much nicer den mine..:)



this is my dearest necklace cos it's made wif love! hee..it's made wif man-made corals which cost a BOMB..the materials for this necklace adds up to be ard $70..juz the red man-made corals cost $50..haha..my most expensive necklace i tink..=p..but i love it. :)

n here is the one i made..



not nice rite..color combination wrong..looks cheapo..looks like i'm not cut out to be a beadmaker..haha..

the bear,the bee,n the camera..

wah..long time didn't blog liao..has been goin out the last few days..

yesterday somethin stunning happened..well, cpt tiger got to go alexandra hospital n hav a x-ray for his wisdom teeth so i accompanied him..we were walkin n crappin happily across a nice nice garden n guess who we saw when we walked up a flight of steps?

ahbear n his bee..

wah! i got the shock of my life man! becos:

1) i haven't seen ahbear for a few mths oredi n of all places, we met at alexandra hospital (like filming a drama serial hor..btw both mi n cpt tiger r borned in alexandra hospital..hee..)
2) that was the first time i've seen bee n of all places, we get to meet each other at alexandra hospital
3) both ahbear n i were accompanyin our current gf/bf to see the dentist at the same place at the same time
4) my name was under ahbear's name when we registered at the dentist clinic
5) i saw bee first, n out of kaypo-ness turned to see how the girl's bf looked like n it was ahbear..*faints*

haha..quite amusing when i tink abt it now..but hor, dunno y when we meet, bee's face was not veri friendly..so thru'out the short conversation i din dare to look at her..can sense a 'black' face beside mi..made mi tok a lot of gibbish at that moment..mayb her teeth veri pain..now tt i tink of it, i tot i shld hav took the initiative n introduced bee n cpt tiger since it's an act of courtesy..

cpt tiger told mi tt he saw bee giving mi some up-down looks when i was tokin to ahbear..hope she is not unhappy..ahbear told mi before tt bee tinks i'm a chiobu..haha..funny rite..he said tt when she saw my photos, she was unhappy cos she 'din knew tt his ex was so chio', n when she saw more photos, her face become blacker n blacker n she refused to speak to him..sounds flatterin to mi hor..haha..but i know i'm not chio lah..so let's juz leave it as tt. hopefully she'll realise tt i'm not as chio as she tot when she saw the real me yesterday..will make things easier for ahbear i tink..=p

aiyah, although we met hor, i dunno how she looks like leh..dun dare to look at her..now abit regret..stoopid rite..haha..but hor, honestly speakin lah, i felt tt cpt tiger n mi were a happier couple during the short meetin..ahbear n bee were more of a stable couple while cpt tiger n mi were jokin ard n behavin as if we're in our honeymoon period..i'm veri glad abt this..but hor, ahbear n bee shld still be in their honeymoon period mah? they were togther for abt two mths only..how come so fast can't see sparks liao..hmm..mayb not at tt moment only lah hor..mi n cpt tiger not 100% happy together also..hee..

it's been a long time since my last blog..so let's make it a long one today! hmm..ok, i shld write abt my eyebrow story..:)

first, let mi tell u y i'm writin this..

one day, i suddenly realise the eyebrow is an impt feature on our face after seein some photos..yes, the photos gave mi the inspiration for writin this blog but i hav to emphasize tt i'm not writin this to laugh or tease anyone..i'm not tt cruel..so it's not arrowed at anyone k? i dun really hav a lot of frens who have sparse eyebrows lah..but juz in case whoever who's readin this tinks tt i'm writin abt him/her, pls dun get angry k..i'm juz tokin abt a general scenario..:)

have u all tot how u'll look like with sparse eyebrows? i personally feel tt a person looks veri different with n without eyebrows..as wat i've said earlier in my previous blog, if a person has sparse eyebrow, i tink his/her face will look like an egg from afar..so hopefully the person wears glasses.. cos tt'll help alot..

as always, pics says a thousand words..so below r two pics of mi..one is the un-modified version, n as for the other, i used photoshop to edit my eyebrows to make it sparse lookin..look different rite? haha..cpt tiger says i look like a ghost in the second pic..





sorry the pics r over-exposed cos i took it by myself n the flash was too bright cos i din hold it far enuff..haha..quite boliao rite..

oh, my conclusion is tt, for gals wif sparse eyebrows, do really spend some time drawin it on before u go out even if u r not puttin on any make-up..it'll make u look prettier..hee..trust mi! as for guys..mayb u can try puttin brandy or hair tonic on it to see if it grows denser..hahaha..i dunno if this works but one of my frens really tried this before..

speakin of takin pics..i bought another camera yesterday! from yahoo auctions again..it's a benq camera too, model is DC2300..alot of pple hav been sellin it online cos they got it free from starhub promo..so the price is not veri ex..it's quite a good buy i tink..i got it at $90..2.1MP wif a nice big LCD screen..not bad! i'm sourcing for cheap sd/mmc card now cos the camera memory is only 8Mb..got to increase..but hor, the camera consumes battery like mad! it used up two energizer batteries within a few hrs! wah kao..now i really believe tt digital cameras r battery-eatin-monsters..so i got to buy some rechargeable batts n a battery charger as well..there goes my ang pow money..sigh..

did u all had fun durin chinese new yr? i hope u did..be happy always k! :)

how bad is ur temper?

below is a review on how bad ur temper is accordin to ur horoscope..well, put it up cos cpt tiger's n mine were quite accurate! mayb it works for u too..enjoy. :)


HOW BAD IS YOUR TEMPER ACCORDING TO YOUR HOROSCOPE

ARIES MARCH 21-APRIL 20
Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to apologise, which makes them easier to forgive.

TAURUS APRIL 21-MAY 20
You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose your cool, people don't know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes you've made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

GEMINI MAY 21-June 29
You are recognised by your cheerful disposition and your jovial nature is easily susceptible to anger. In fact, you are the best person to have around when there is an ugly scene at a party you can bring the warring factions together quite diplomatically. But when you lose cool, you yell and scream and will not listen to reason. You must have the last word in a wordy duel. Your capacity to argue aggressively is matched only by your seductive charm.

CANCER JUNE 21-JULY 21
Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself. You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper. If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly. But that does not mean you do not have a temper. When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words. Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

LEO JULY 22-AUGUST 21
If anyone has total control over their emotions, it is you. But then, you can be described as stiff, cold and uncaring. You are known to lack spontaneity but you really don't care about opinions. You don't like to create scenes and will never accept invitations to a party where you suspect the presence of an unruly lot. But your very presence seems challenging to some and they take vicarious pleasure in your disquiet. When angry you can use critical language. A dressingdown can humiliate your opponent, causing a strain between both of you forever.

VIRGO AUGUST 22-SEPTEMBER 21
Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent. When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand. You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall. You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser. You feel that others are trying to persecute you and don't quite respect your opinions. When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.

LIBRA SEPTEMBER 22-OCTOBER 22
Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac? Well, it's true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry. You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality. You also think you are above things like anger. But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood. Your family or those very close to you know you better. You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.

SCORPIO OCTOBER 23-NOVEMBER 21
Of course you don't lose your cool. But your very demeanour (manner) projects hauhtiness (arrogance, pride), pride and grand disdain (disregard) for lesser mortals (human). Others are often found saying that anger sits on your nose and you are raring to give your piece mind to the first person who try to be funny with you. You are selective in the choice of your friends, and have a low tolerance for the superflous (extra) types. Your tongue-lashing (attack) is generally in a soft hissing tone for when you scream, your voice tends to get shrill and loud and you do hate drawing attention to yourself! When upset, you are angrier with yourself for having shown weakness, for the last thing that Scorpio wants to show is being out of control.

SAGITTARIUS NOVEMBER 22-DECEMBER 20
You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake. You're also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you're upset with them.

CAPRICORN DECEMBER 21-JANUARY 19
Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see thing with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.

AQUARIUS JANUARY 20-FEBRUARY 18
You are noble and kind and dislike losing control over yur emotions. It is very rare for you to get angry. You are also the pacifier in situations that involve arguments. It is always your endeavour to be perfect and socially correct in your behaviour and attitude, but if misunderstood and slighted you can give in to an angry outburst. You will shout and scream and then walk out from the scene. You cannot easily forget the situation and will be bitter about it for a long time.

PISCES FEBRUARY 19-MARCH 20
The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to others' feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up. Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.

Happy Chinese New Year! :)

it's CNY! hope everyone of u will hav a happy year ahead..may all your wishes come true!

not much time for bloggin these few days..juz a short summary k? cpt tiger n i hav come back from the bead-makin class! n he made mi a beautiful necklace..i've taken photos of the necklaces we made..will put it up here soon. :)

and my feature n the eyebrow story is on the way..look out for it!

got to zzz now..enjoy ur day tomolo collectin ang baos for those who r unmarried, n for those who r married, hav a wonderful year wif ur loved ones..*nites*

my pillowcase! :)

today i received a call from xx pri skool at 7am..interrupted my dream..damn..i sort of rem it's somethin quite interestin..

anyway, the skool asked mi if i'm available for relief teachin today n tomolo..well, tomolo cpt tiger n i goin for our bead class, so i'm not free..as for today, it was them who say tt actually they dun need a relief teacher after some considerations..so there goes my 90 bucks n i woke up for nothin..this is the bad news.

the good news is tt the skool called mi ard noon juz now to ask if i'm available for long-term relief from 29th jan to 20th feb..a male teacher was goin for reservist..well, this is quite a good opportunity to earn some extra cash but:

1) i've a chalet from 29th onwards n i promise dragon tt i'll sign in liao..but if i take up the relief i can only go on fri afternoon (relief is from 7.20am to 1pm)
2) my birthday is on 6th feb..if go for relief dunno got strength to celebrate not (my first bday wif cpt tiger!)
3) den will i hav time for my thesis?

seems like i got lots of pros n cons to weigh ah..i called cpt tiger to discuss abt this but it seems like he's more involved in his gunbound game..said he's playin n will call mi back when he finish..now is oredi 3-plus..n he still haven't called..dunno y men sometimes dun keep their words one..but i'm used to this liao lah..well-trained..haha..so nvm..

back to the mornin part. i was awakened by the phonecall rite? den initially it was quite hard to fall zzz again so i tot of somethin to post on my blog..the title is: "how my pillowcase affects my zzz"

first, let mi describe roughly how my pillowcase looks like..

on one side, it's a cheery tweety lookin full of energy n the weather is veri sunny..



on the other, it's a sleepin tweety lookin sweet n innocent, restin on a puffy cloud..n there's a moon at a corner to signify it's night time..



cute rite? hee..i always feel tt if i zzz wif the cheery tweety facin upwards, i can't hav a good zzz..so i always make sure the sleepin tweety is facin up when i hav difficulty fallin asleep..this happened this mornin too..haha..i'm so superstitious rite..but somehow it works loh..tellin u all abt this stoopid story cos i've a camera to show u all wat i'm tokin abt! i love my camera..it's veri light (62g) n it's veri chio..abit hard to take nice pics though..got to put in more effort to learn..but i believe once i get the hang of it, i can take nice nice pics! for now, juz make do wif the mediocre pics lah..haha..=p

when i'm free i'm goin to write abt y i feel that the eyebrows r an impt part of our facial feature..n how i dun understand y some pple tend to neglect tt..esp gals, since they can actually put on some make-up to make it better..to mi, a face without a eyebrow looks like an egg from afar..no offence to anyone but this is how i feel..will elaborate on it when i free..byee~~ :)

happenin day..

yesterday was a happenin day..

first, i was supposed to get the cheap cheap camera from the owner rite? well, ard noon he msg mi a strange msg--"so sorry for the postposement (his mistake, not mine) of the deal"..wat did he mean by that? n that was no msg prior to this msg too..so i was quite pissed cos the worse i've imagined had happened..i can't get my camera today! after being so excited the nite before (i couldn't zzz, finally fell zzz at 4-plus n woke up at 8-plus..might b normal to u all but it's RARELY i wake up at such hours..my frens can verify tt..haha..)..sigh..so sad...

after msgin cpt tiger abt the sad news, i sent the owner two msgs n when i called him, i was diverted to a pager..so i was tinkin tt he muz be tryin to call the deal off..so sad..den i msg him sayin tt i needed the camera cos my brother's graduation ceremony is on the next day..den, after two hours, he called mi..u know wat happened? his mother passed away (the dealer is an uncle)..wah, i was so shocked man..den so guilty for msgin him abt the camera when such a big thing happened..

we were supposed to meet at clementi to deal but he said he's not comin down liao cos he was supposed to visit his mum in clementi but now tt she passed away, he's to stay in pasir ris to attend to stuff..so he asked mi to meet him in pasir ris..i told him tt this could wait but he insisted tt he can meet me on tt day..so i din argued much..so i went down to pasir ris area to meet him..n waited for him for more than one hour..well, i din dare to rush him cos it'll not be nice to, so i waited, waited n waited..wearin my highest heels somemore..sigh..unlucky day..bit it was really nice of him to meet mi even though he's so busy..strange enuff, he din sound or look sad..i wonder why..

after meetin him (at 6-plus, i was supposed to meet someone at city hall at 6pm), i rushed down to city hall..to meet who leh? well, since wat i'm goin to say later is something quite embarrassin, i shall keep the person's identity a secret..let's call her shirley temple (cos we both drank tt later)..

shirley temple n i went to a gatherin organised by a yahoo group who is an affiliate of SDU..yah, SDU..hahha...funny rite..i was so paiseh when i went there! omg..tink it muz be the most embarrassin thing i've ever gone to..imagine goin to a party without knowin anyone there..i almost chicken out..haha..but being a good fren of shirley temple, i've decided to help her find someone to take care of her..so, we went in, ordered two glasses of shirley temple n juz stood somewhere..

amazingly, a lot of guys came to tok to us..luckily pple tok to us, or i definitely wouldn't initiate any chats! dunno abt shirley temple though..i almost blurted out tt i've a bf to a guy too..haha..took a lot of energy to swallow the words down again..y i din say leh? cos..

1) it'll be weird if i've a bf n yet i go to this kind of parties.
2) the guy was the most ok guy (he has a group of ok frens--above average-- too) we met durin the whole event n i tink shirley temple has quite a good impression on him, so i decided not to scare him away..

two hrs later, i couldn't rem any names except for a few..all mixed up..haha..n when shirley temple n i wanted to go off oredi, a guy wanted to send us home on a taxi..we escaped eventually cos the guy was a bit weird..scary man..but it was quite bad of us to go off like tt..

well, above is the summary of the nite..

next to my camera! first i shall show u all how i looked like last nite..



pardon the darkness+blur-ness but cpt tiger (i went to his house to overnite after the party) n i dunno how to use camera yet, so the pic is veri dark cos we din switch on the flash..ahha..see my necklace? tt was a swarovski necklace given to mi by cpt tiger..my favourite accessory now! :)

den, let mi show u my re-decorated camera pouch! veri cute one!!



i pasted the ah pooh sticker onto the pouch..makes the boring lookin pouch so much nicer i tot..haha..

last but not least, i wan to thank cpt tiger cos he trusted mi enuff to let mi go to this kind of event..he's veri understandin..though i felt tt he seems to love mi more strongly after the party, esp if guys call or msg to ask u out (so gals, go to this kind of events occasionally)..hee..=p

Loving an imperfect person

They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handles their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her.

Today, she's being willful again.

Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? She promised she'd pay."

Him: "I don't have time that day."

Her: "Humph!"

Him: "Huh?"

Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all the time you need."

Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day."

Her: "Humph! I don't care, you'll have to do it for her!"

Him: "No."

Her: "Just this once?"

Him: "No."

Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yes within three days, or else..."

First day, she "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator, television, hi-fi... Except the double bed, to show her "benevolence".

Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day, she conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences."

He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day, night. On the bed. He's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

Him: "We need to talk."

Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."

Him: "It's something very important."

She remains silent.

Him:"Let's get a divorce."

She did not believe her ears.

Him: "I got to know a girl."

She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish. But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that's the only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless.

Him: "She's a nice girl."

Her tears fell.

Him: "She has a good personality too."

She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart.

Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married."

She's very jealous because she said the same thing in the past.

Him: "She loves me truly."

She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?"

Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't want to do."

She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.

Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?"

Her: "...!"

He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face.

He sighs. She cries.

He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up. He's asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him.

She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have a intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push him anymore. She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh.

It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

"You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." :)

my camera! :)

last nite i bidded at an auction for a cheap cheap camera..this is how it looks like..:)



it only costs mi 40 bucks n i'm goin to meet up wif the owner tomolo! hee..hopefully it's still in good condition..oh btw the model of the camera is benq dc1300..it's only 1.3 mega pixels, n no LCD screen..but well, for 40 bucks i shldn't expect much rite? the main usage of this camera is to take down pics so tt i can post on my blog! n to take pics of my future bead stuff so tt i can try to sell them online..moreover, camera cheap cheap only so next time if i wanna upgrade it my heart wun feel any pinch..actually my dream camera is canon a80..hee..

i've been lookin out for a camera abt two weeks ago when i juz started my blog..n i almost almost bought a lousy camera wif only 640 x 480 pixels..cos it's only 30 bucks..din buy it in the end..which was lucky for mi lah, cos i got this better deal now! guess i can start a more interestin blog now..though recently i sort of hav lesser entries (cos my life is borin like dunno wat now..sigh..)..will tell u all how the camera is! :)

i'm still sick..though quite mild..nose veri itchy n i tink it's goin to drop off..yesterday cpt tiger came to visit mi wif some chinese medicine n a big big bottle of pi2 pa2 gao1..haha..real sweet of him..today he's workin at tiong bahru..n this weekend he's workin too..muz be hard on him..being a promoter is no easy stuff..tired legs, sore throat, husky voice are wat u'll get after days of standin n tokin non-stop..hope he can hang in there..(^o^)

sick ling..

i am gettin sick..feelin feverish n my throat is goin to be inflamed..hate this feelin..i tink i genna the virus when i went for relief teachin yesterday..some pple in the staff room were sick..n when i was in the general office, a lady kept coughin n i was wonderin if she genna sars, at the same time noticin tt her cough sounds dry..*gasps*

haha..well, hope my anti-bodies can win the fight..not really sick yet but i'm on the way though..in a few days time i'll tell u who won the battle of virus vs anti-bodies..

when i was teachin a pri one class, i met a super-duper snobbish boy..pri one only ok! 7 yrs old! n he was already givin mi the i-dun-care-even-if-u-r-a-teacher attitude..when i teach, he plays wif his paper crane..when i asked him to keep it, he pretends not to hear it..when i give him a final warnin, he gave mi a so-wat?-i've-a-rich-father-who-can-make-u-lose-ur-job-if-u-try-to-throw-away-my-precious-crane stare (too bad u can't do tt, i'm only a relief teacher..u wun get to see mi tomolo)..i den decided not to waste my time wif this boy cos the time can b used in a more constructive way to teach the other kids who r willing to listen to mi..

later, when i asked him to answer a question, he dunno anythin abt the things i asked him to do..expected. so i ordered him to stand until he can answer my question..n i gave the whole class a few more mins to revise..n when i turn my back, he sat down. i was furious when i saw tt (but i was still 100% calm..afterall he's only a boy)..so i sternly tell him to stand up as i din ask him to sit down..n he gave mi tt stare again..wah! so rude! he's the first boy (<16 yrs old) tt gives mi the urge to slap him (i'm not someone who'll dare to slap someone, even if one day i find my husband on the bed wif another gal)..of cos i din slap him..cos it'll b wrong of mi to do tt even though i'm his teacher..anyway, i've decided at that moment tt i wan to try to change this boy's view of life..so i abandoned my teachin n walked over to him..n den preached at him (eg. i dun care if u dun listen to my class..mayb ur grades r oredi terrific or u r simply not interested in chinese..i juz wan to tell u tt how good a person is does not have any connection wif his grades..wat matters most in the end is the kind of person u r..n the basic courtesy when u r in a skool is to respect ur teacher, n secondly, to look at the person in the eyes when they tok to u)..well, he din listen much to mi though..i din manage to make him look at mi in the eyes when i tok to him..however, i really hope i can make a teeny-weeny impact in his life..mayb one day he'll find mi via super sunday for changin his life..haha..fat hope.

this leads mi to another issue. parents in singapore. i really tink the way some of them spoil their kids is atrocious..dun they realise wat kind of pple they've moulded their kids into? i really feel quite sad abt this..where're the innocence of a child? at least i can still say i was a nice kid when i was young..not fantastic but still ok i tink..i hope my kids will be brought up in a proper way, so much so tt when i bring them to kfc, it'll be a treat cos they did well in their studies or they've behaved well..not like some of the kids today who eats fast food like nobody's biz n takes cabs when they go out (yes, i've seen small kids takin cabs when i was waitin at the bus stop)..my kids shouldn't take things ard them for granted. they shld b respectful. they will not be spoilt, i assured..

btw, the pay for relief teachers suffered a paycut this yr too..it used to be $100 but now it's $90..sigh..but it's still good money lah..too bad it's only for a day only..but i muz really tell u all it's not easy to be a teacher..one day n i fell sick..weak.

i'm becomin more n more unhappy..dunno y..tok lesser, feels sad sometimes for no reason, n feel lonely..i tink i'm goin to genna depression..

*sob sob* :(

i'm a beadmaker~

today i went orchard to shop! so happy..veri long neber go out n dress nice nice liao cos of the stoopid thesis..but last nite found out abt the deadline so i was feelin more relaxed today..so i jio cpt tiger to collect the prize i won online! ermm..actually not only mi..my dad n cpt tiger won oso..haha..dunno y but i only registered three of our names n all genna..wonderin wat it is? see it here..:)

all the three chua winners from 21 dec to 23 dec r all my entries (yes, mi n cpt tiger hav the same surname..damn! i wun get to change surname for my whole life if i'll get to marry cpt tiger..)..haha..btw cpt tiger's name looks alot like my dad's hor..=p

ok, i know it's not a spectacular prize i won but the three prizes add up to alot of vouchers i can spend at tt shop ok!! $1500 worth of vouchers! haha..i almost faint at the shop when i see so many things tt i can buy (without any trace of heartache)..initially wasn't veri excited abt the winnings cos the website states tt winners will be gettin strands of mineral beads n i dun really like minerals beads..but today they gave mi vouchers..i can buy almost anythin at the shop! yippee!!~~ n the shop pple were veri amused n surprised tt all 3 of us were from the 'same family' (wat they said..not mi..mi n cpt tiger not from the same family..haha..)

i'll like to thank cpt tiger for waitin for mi patiently at the shop today..i tink if i went wif other guys, they'll hit the roof n exclaim when-r-u-goin-to-finish-lookin-at-the-bloody-beads-n-get-out-of-the-shop..haha..n know wat? cpt tiger is goin to join mi for a bead experience class next week! he's so sweet..hee..in the class we'll be learnin how to make a necklace n we'll get to bring back the one we made! FOC too..this class was included in the prize..hee..too bad my dad's one wasn't transferrable or i'll ask my mum or my fren to go..

but den again, today wasn't a fantastic day..got ups n downs..there were times when i feel veri pek chek n there were times i felt really happy..n the day din exactly end wif a perfect note..i shall leave out the details..but all these set me tinkin abt my future..n how i wan it to b..to tell the truth, i can't tahan if i get so pek chek a few times in a day..makes mi an unhappy gal..dun tink i will want this in the long run. now quite confused abt wat i'm goin to do abt it.. =S

oh yah, on a happy note, if u all got notice my chat box on the right side of the blog, there's a 'dom' who chats to mi now n den..hee..he's my primary skool classmate! we used to play alot wif another guy named kenneth n always genna scoldin by teacher..dunno if dom still rem, but there was once the three of us were made to stand outside the staff room n we were all reprimanded by our form teacher mrs quek..i rem her tellin tt i shld set a good eg cos i was the class monitress..hahaha..scene still vivid in my mind..we used to play alot of stoopid games like usin an exercise book to play wheel of fortune (we passed it ard durin class..)..n alot of other games..haha..tinkin back, we were quite creative in terms of creatin new games to entertain ourselves..but ever since we left JPS, three of us drifted apart..though dom was in the same sec skool, we seldom interact..not to mention kenneth who was in commonwealth sec at tt time..till now mi n kenneth became veri distant n we're only hi-bye frens when we saw each other on a few occasions in nus..haha..as for dom, i saw him recently on n off when i was wif cpt tiger..tok cock for a while, n went separate ways..so far one of the best thing abt startin this blog is tt mi n dom started to get in touch again! haha..thank u dom, for accessin my blog so often..i tink u r the only one who reads it..mi so touched~..haha..mayb we shld organise a primary skool gatherin!! ok ok? :)

my sketch! :)

juz finished checkin out nus website..tink i got to pay 500+ bucks for my skool fees again cos i still haven't finished my thesis..damn! this is the bad news..the good news is, i juz hav to pass up before 31st mar..seems that i've two n a half mths more..so now feelin better..previously was quite stressed..can't make it for my fees to be exempted (which i was hopin to aim for) cos i got to hand up by 17th jan for this to come true..which is like 5 days away? wif more 90% of my thesis undone? impossible! haha..so i tink i juz settle for the 500 bucks thingy n go back to my job as a motorola promoter in the meanwhile..hope i can get the job back though..sigh..my life isn't tt smooth-sailin at the moment..

before i dampened ur mood wif my unhappiness over my thesis, i've somethin to announce! hee..nothin great though..but i spent some effort doin it..so here goes..i've scanned the sketch liao! haha..adnil last time told mi that she wanted to see it when i mention to her tt i gave it to cpt tiger as a xmas card..so i tink she'll be the only person who's wantin to see it..besides mi of cos..hee..but before i show u the sketch, let's hav a look at the original photo..



ar first i wanted to add in the scenes at the back cos it's a fantastic view of the explanade's nite view but i made the mistake of drawin our faces too big..so the sketch is not well done at all (the gal dun look like mi n cpt tiger says tt the guy looks more like my father..sob sob..)..cos i'm much better at drawin scenery than portraits..haha..here it is..



so did u had a good laugh? =p

well, let's move on to wat happened today..today i went to bugis to meet a stranger cos i bought some body scrub online..12 bucks for a 250g bottle..haven't really try it yet but it seems quite effective cos i tried it on a small part of my hand..shld be a good buy i guess! haha..the online pple say it's being used in spas in bintan..i'll give my review after i used it on my whole body..will try to get cpt tiger's review too..*wait until he's zzz den i put it on him n see if it works well on him too..get a second opinion better rite?* haha..oops..cpt tiger will be readin this..but nvm..i'm borned to be a sneaky thief..haha..

after meetin the person, i took a bus down to causeway point cos cpt tiger is workin there..tot his break was at 4pm..i reached at 4.10pm but SIGH..he juz came back from his break at 3.30pm cos he's takin two half-an-hr break..so sad..damn sad..so i shop ard loh..tot he'll be havin his second break somewhere near 6pm..i bought two ties for him n a pair of earrings for myself..too bad no camera, else i can take pics n show u all..when i finished shoppin (cos i veri tired liao, last nite din zzz well), i went to find him to discover tt he wants to hav his break at 7pm instead..super duper sad..sometimes i feel tt he's too rational when in love..cos he choose to tink wat-time-will-be-a-better-time-to-eat-so-tt-i-wun-be-hungry-later than why-dun-i-take-a-break-an-hour-earlier-to-accompany-ling-who-came-down-specially-to-find-mi..well..i'm not angry or wat lah..but one day i got to discuss y he's always so rational..got to know wat he's tinkin else in the long run i might feel neglected..but i believe we can solve this together before it even becomes a prob..hee..:)

no strength to write any more stuff now..tomolo (or rather, today-12th jan) is turtle's birthday! he's the matchmaker for cpt tiger n mi so we were tinkin of celebratin it wif him..provided he wans to come out..we haven't get a present for him yet but we'll definitely get him somethin! to thank him..hee..HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY TURTLE TEO!! *damn we are gettin so old..* :)

byeee!~~

sad day~

hi everyone! long time neber blog liao..haha..cos last nite i went to cpt tiger's house n stay..no comp to use..hee..=p

today was an unlucky day..damn suay..lotsa things happen..n as if they were not enuff, a stoopid man on a bicycle has to ga1 jiao1 mi when i was on my way home..so disgustin..i dun understand y some men, esp older ones like to make sounds at girls..esp plump gals like mi..haha..mayb they tink nicer to hug hor..damn..i always genna one leh..uncles n malays like mi..dunno y..sigh..cpt tiger say mayb when he become an uncle he will love mi more..haha..he's a cuckoo..

weekend will b a boring one again..cpt tiger workin temp job again..this time at causeway point..sian man! mi alone again..sob sob..eh, nothin to blog abt today leh..let mi tink of somethin..hmm..hmm..

ok, let's discuss if a person's looks is impt if u wanna find ur bf/gf..

well, to mi, looks r definitely not my priority n i dun really wish tt my bf will be too handsome..cos:

1) most handsome guys r flirts
2) i will feel insecure
3) wat if they zao2 sai1 if some girls flirt at them? (see how insecure i am? =p)

however, if a guy isn't at least presentable lookin, i dun tink i will like him either..for eg. if he is too short/ small-sized, i dun tink i will fall in love wif him..cos i quite big-sized for a girl..if hor, pple laugh at mi cos my bf smaller size den mi i will faint man..haha..

but to tell the truth, my expectations of looks r not veri high..as long as u look like human can liao..best if u hav beautiful eyes..cos i firmly believe tt eyes r the windows to ur soul..i still look at the person's character eventually one..mi not so shallow one k..:)

actually the difference between a good-lookin bf n a not-so-good-lookin bf (in my own opinion) is the 'desire' to show him to my frens/ relatives etc..pple who read my previous blogs will know tt i happen to find cpt tiger quite good-lookin rite? veri bad of mi, but i always feel eager for him to meet my frens/ relatives..cos OMG~ how in the world did someone like him fall for mi?? haha..as i wrote in his friendster's testimonial, i tink his eyes genna block by stamps ah..haha..he has the qualities to find a much chio-er gf den mi..well..

I LOVE SINGAPORE POST! FOR PRODUCING STAMPS!~haha..=p

after being together wif cpt tiger, i realise tt flirts has not as much to do as looks as i tot..yes, no doubts good-lookin guys tend to get more attention from girls, i realise tt u can be a flirt no matter how u look..it depends on how an individual decides to behave..so far cpt tiger has been a veri sincere n devoted guy..n although he is not a super-duper handsome boy who attracts girls' attention everywhere, he has his fair share of admirers too..but he din respond to those attention..till now i still wonder y..hee..but this quality of his made mi his first gf..so honoured! hee..but den again, he's lucky tt i'm his first gf too..cos if he has previous gfs prior to mi, i'll sure ask him who's prettier, who treats him better, who he likes more etc etc..haha..*naggy+kaypo+jealousy*..=p

wat abt u? will u accept a not-so-good-lookin bf/gf? leave ur comments below if u've somethin to say..:)

today i got back the sketch i drew for cpt tiger as a 'xmas card'..it's a portrait of us (but it doesn't look like us..i tried my best liao though..)..got it back cos i wanna scan n post it up here to show u all! not tonite though..ling's tired..look out for it pple! nites..:)

jiayou!! :)

today cpt tiger told mi i'll be the most beautiful bride when we get married! haha..really veri happy..ok ok, i know almost all bfs tell their gfs this, but i still choose to be happy leh~..hee..la la la la la la la la la la la *smurf song*

cpt tiger from today onwards dun slack liao k! we'll work hard together..i really hope u can find a job soon so tt we can hold a similar event to the one u went to tonite..love u. :)

the lie *thunder*

yesteday cpt tiger commented tt i din state how ahbear lied to mi..here goes the story..

on nov 2x (i can't rem the exact date), ah bear called mi to tok cock..

ahbear n mi: blah blah blah,,

ahbear: wah, i tink i still wun get a gf after u broke up wif ur next bf..(damn, he cursin mi n cpt tiger indirectly although i know he dun mean it tt way)

mi: r u sure..u got so many girls ard u..

ahbear: i mean it..i dun like anyone easily..mayb i'm not like u..

mi: chey, i dun believe u lah..

ahbear m mi: blah blah blah..

den on nov 3x, ahbear called again..

ahbear: i'm back from my dive trip..actually i'm callin to tell u tt i've a gf oredi..i juz wan u to be the first to know..or mayb, u'll be the only one who knows..

mi: wat? i tot u told mi u r not gettin a gf so soon? Y DID U LIE TO MI?! *thunder strikes*

ahbear: i didn't lie to you (yes, u did)..i din expect her to accept mi too (there's a difference between a girl not acceptin u yet n sayin tt u'll be single for a long time)..y can't u wish us happiness? i din react like u when u told mi u n cpt tiger r attached (cos i din lie to u, idi*t)..i was veri sad den too..but there's nothin i can do (of cos, u dun treasure our relationship wat)..

mi: den stop wearin the ring tt used to belong to both of us..she wun like it..

ahbear: no, it's become somethin i'm used to puttin on everyday..i'm used to wearin it oredi..no one can ask mi to take it off..

mi: nvm loh, soon she'll ask u to take it off no matter u like it not..if she dun, den congrats..u've found someone who dun restrict u anymore..

well, above is a summary of wat happened..at that point of time, i was veri angry, not becos ahbear found another gf..if he found someone he loves, i'll be more than happy for him, cos i've found mine too..but wat i cannot accept is the fact tt he called mi twice within less den ten days n tellin mi a totally different story..to a certain extent i feel cheated..but i'm not angry liao lah..juz dun feel like seein him..

dunno from when onwards i saw his status in friendster changin from "single" to "in a relationship"..n someone congratin him abt findin his miss right..ok..so this is wat u mean by i might be the only person who will know abt this..he's practically announcin it wat..haha..but i'm not so petty to be angry at this lah..juz find it contradictin n funny..but it was only recently tt he told mi tt he did not make all those changes.den who did? mayb it's his bee loh..cos she was supposed to be clearin his emails for him when he went overseas n durin tt time she was the only one who can access his friendster..but den again, y didn't she change hers to "in a relationship" too? it's a mystery..i'm quite curious if he's still wearin the ring too..my best guess is tt he's not anymore..cos i dun believe girls who allow their bfs to wear their ex's ring exist in this world..haha..=p

oh, his last call to mi made mi reflected somethin on myself too..let mi tell u y..ahbear told mi (without any trace of guilt) he is always late for half an hr whenever he meets up wif bee (poor girl..)..the more i tot of this, the more i feel tt he's takin the pple ard him for granted again..tsk tsk..i tot u said u've learnt ur lesson? mayb u'll tink tt she waitin for u without complainin shows how deeply she loves u loh..but i tell u, one day she'll feel so unimportant n i dunno wat will happen den..listen here..

u being late doesn't showed mi how much she loves u..it only shows mi how much u dun treasure her..

well, i dun tink ahbear will get to read this but if he happens to, i really hope he can change (cos i really wish him n bee happiness)..enuff said abt him..here comes the important part..actually i'm a habitual latecomer too..n i know cpt tiger is not veri happy abt this..although i always tink tt i'm only late for a while so it's not a big deal but den again, cpt tiger is a punctual person..so he has to wait for mi quite often..i wan to apologise here for being late dear..believe mi, i'm tryin hard to change..can see tt i'm veri punctual when i openin my house side gate rite (hee..some of u may tink tt this is crap cos the meetin place is at my house mah but i really did make effort to reach before he does)..pls give mi time n do trust tt i'll change in the future..for our sake..:)

i hate liars

blogger was down last nite..so this post which was oredi written got to wait till now to be put up..

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today ahbear called cos he wanted to pass mi some dried mangoes n bracelets he bought for mi when he went for his thailand marine conservation trip (or somethin like tt lah, dunno the details..haha..)..first of all, i got to thank him for rememberin my dad (the dried mangoes were for him, but hor..no offence, i tink the kind he bought wasn't the type my dad likes..hee..) n mi, cos it was really nice of him to bring somethin back for us although he dun hav the need to..but this leads to a veri contradictin situation:

1) i am thankful for the presents;
2) but i dun wan to see him

so how?? =S

well, i had been askin him not to buy anythin back for mi cos of reason (2)..but it seems that he din heed it..but den again, he bought somethin for mi=he was being nice, so i shldn't be nasty n refused to meet him..so..when he called, i tok nicely..but in reality, i really really dun wan to see him..why do i feel this way? cos..

HE LIED TO MI..*thunder strikes*

not tt he lied abt a veri big issue (he is still a nice guy), n the matter might not seem like a big deal to some pple but i HATE pple who lied to mi..i am not angry now but some things can be forgiven but not forgotten..i thought over it n decided tt the next time i see him will be the time when:

1) i am gettin married (yes i will invite him n his bee);
2) he's gettin married (provided he invites mi, n i tink if he invites mi, he'll invite cpt tiger as well, else i'll be so lonely);
3) my weight becomes 52kg (sounds impossible though..haha..)

y these three reasons? for (1) & (2), it's becos i dun hate him to the extent tt i wun wan him to participate in the greatest thing tt happen to mi in my life n vice versa, n (3) purely for fun..cos he dun believe tt i can slim down..let mi prove u wrong! cpt tiger is helpin mi k..haha..ok ok, mayb i'm tryin to show off to him how 'pretty' i can get..haha..

yes i know i sound veri petty but i am juz being honest abt how i feel..i dunno y i am feelin like this too..it's like, oh thx for the mangoes, i will like to hav them cos it was a nice gesture from u n thank u but i dun wan to see u..can u mail the mangoes n bracelets over? oh, the mangoes r too heavy..oh, u wanna come to my house n put it into my mailbox? later my dad will wonder who drop these inside my mailbox n i dun really wish to mention ur name in front of my parents now else they'll tink we r still not 'finished' yet..n oh, u shouldn't do all these cos u took the trouble to buy the things..i shldn't make u waste so much energy to pass mi the stuff, i wun feel good abt it..see how contradictin it is?

actually i oso dunno y i resisted seein him..n besides this, i dun really like him to call mi too..i've told him countless times not to call mi again but he still does it..so i gave up..haha..at least i dun need to see him when he calls..one thing i can confirm is that it's not becos i still hav feelings for him or wat..but sometimes i will wonder if he regrets lettin mi go..it's veri bad of mi to tink this way, but i hope he does. juz to prove my worth for the years we've been together n the efforts tt i've made towards the relationship..but i tink i wun get the answer..at least not now..mayb when we are old den i ask him loh..haha..well, juz a crazy tot lah..not tt impt anyway..:)

next, let's tok abt gingercat. today for a small period of time he wasn't smilin n when i tok to him, all i get were mostly one word answers..i wasn't really happy abt this..so i kept quiet as well..n the silence wasn't really tt comfortable..y is this happenin? is he tired? is he not feelin well? is he bored shoppin wif mi? or becos his legs were tired from standin for the past two days cos he was workin? i dunno the ans, though i will really like to know it..n yes, it's impt to mi to know y he was feelin like this cos:

1) if i know y he is feelin like this, i wun be unhappy;
2) at least if u dun wan to hear my voice, i would hav shut up instead of tokin to a 'wall';
3) i dun need to wonder abt alot of possibilties;
4) we could hav stopped if u r tired/not feelin well/bored..u matter to mi more den shoppin;
5) most imptly, i wan u to be happy. (^o^)

i hope to hear him tok next time..preferrably wif a smile..*winks*

luckily, cpt tiger made my day today..we ate some sandwiches from coffee bean..not bad..but he said the chicken was a bit tough..both of us like the salad though..green n crisp..yum yum! oh, side track abit, the black pepper beef rice i tok abt in my previous post is at a coffee shop at teban gardens blk 39..try it if u r in that vicinity..but be careful! cpt tiger n i juz remember that the mad cow disease is not over yet! sh*t..mayb we stay away from it for a little while..or the next time we are goin to try to see if the stall sells black pepper pork/chicken rice..haha..

cpt tiger was veri nice today at my house..he was smilin most of the time..i love it when he looks happy..we watched tv together, includin fear factor! dunno y but this show sort of became somethin tt we watched together every monday nite..tonite's show was gross..the participants were made to eat animals' penises..yucks! damn gross..i dun tink i'll dare to eat it..oh, n cpt tiger called my dog dear*2 twice tonite! sob sob..he's goin to forsake mi for a bitch (i'm tokin abt a female dog here)..haha..the next time u do tt i'll make u kneel on durian shells! =p

ok time to zzz..tomolo's a long day ahead..i'm still stuck wif my thesis! nowadays i feel like my brain is goin to burst from doin my thesis n my hairs r droppin all over my room..heeelllllppp~~!!! somebody help mi~~!! cpt tiger save mi save mi!! i wan to work n earn money oredi..y am i stuck wif a stupid thesis?? SIGH..

may the sufferin be over soon..*o mi tuo fo*

decision makin

The story given below is quite interesting and really gives us an insight into DECISION MAKING. Which one will you choose?

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track. The train came, and you were just beside the track interchange. You could make the train change its course to the disused track and saved most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way? Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make.



>> YOU HAVE TO MAKE A DECISION BEFORE YOU PROCEED! THE TRAIN WON'T STOP TO WAIT FOR YOU!



Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, I thought the same way initially because to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place? Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was.

This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him. The friend who forwarded me the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track!

Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids. While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

"Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right."

Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils. :)

our love story

yeah! finally i can upload my photos..can see from my last post rite? hee..but dunno can last for how long..still not veri clear abt how everythin operates..today was an uneventful day..cpt tiger is workin today n tomolo..temp job..so no one to play wif mi..haha..i no life one..always rot at home..=p

this afternoon i was quite sad..cos i heard my mum grumblin to my dad that i always play n fool ard n neber do my thesis..den neber work n earn money..den my fren oredi hand in liao i still doin etc etc..sigh..so sad..no one to 'cry' to cos cpt tiger is workin..i neber cry lah..juz sad..i know i veri old liao, shld b earnin money liao but den again i was not foolin ard mah..i know i neglected my studies but i still tink it's worth it ah..now is the period of time cpt tiger n i are not workin=hav time wif each other=can do anythin we wan to before we really step into the workin society..i played enuff liao loh..now workin on my thesis..den y she still grumble at mi..*sob sob*..hope cpt tiger find a job soon too..

hmm..wat shld i tok abt today? hmm..ok, let mi tell u abt how cpt tiger n i ended up together..hee..i tink a lot of my frens heard this story before loh..cos i'm a baodoukia! haha..can skip all these if u wan to..i juz feel like writin it down as a memory so that next time when i old liao i still can read our story..here goes! :)

we met on the 21st of march, 2003..a mutual fren of ours named turtle jio us to a ktv..i din hav a good first impression of cpt tiger cos to mi he looks quite handsome (in my eyes k..those who dun agree nvm..hee..=p) n i usually dun respond warmly to good-lookin guys cos i dislike guys who tink tt they r veri handsome n always hav the "i'm a hunk" dao1 look..haha..so we neber speak much..n the stoopid turtle made us sit together durin the session (later we knew that turtle purposely wan to matchmake cos it was only ard tt period of time whereby he knew tt ahbear n mi hav oredi broke up{he was our JC classmate} n he felt tt cpt tiger was someone i'll like..)..ktv was alrite n after tt the three of us spent the day together till almost 12 midnite..n by the end of the day, i was infatuated wif cpt tiger..haha..y the great change? cos after being together for the whole day, i realise tt cpt tiger behaves like my dad in certain ways (i've always wanted a husband like my dad) n seems veri down-to-earth..not dao1 at all..n i din fell in love wif him cos of his looks k! in fact his looks minus some marks cos i'll surely be veri insecure if i hav a nice-lookin bf..but till now so far so good lah! hee..=p

from den onwards, i tried to find means n ways to meet up wif cpt tiger..be it goin to SIM or ayer rajah cc n pretend to study/ find turtle/ hav lunch or dinner although my mum will surely cook one etc etc..haha..those days were really fun cos i got to know a bunch of new frens n we got really close tt time (but now no more liao..the group slowly fell apart..sad.)..at tt time i only wanted to see cpt tiger tt's all..n as days go by, i knew the infatuation has slowly turned into genuine likin cos cpt tiger has alot of charateristics tt i like..n pple ard all knew i like him except for him himself..haha..to tink tt i was veri obvious somemore..mayb u will tink tt cpt tiger lied to mi abt not knowin (cos it's the usual reaction when my frens hear abt this part) but i really believed that he didn't know abt it den..i know he wun lie to mi..hee..ok ok as long as i believe den ok liao rite..the rest of u can choose not to..:)

lucky he din notice tt i was in love wif him cos later he told mi tt he will most prob shun away from mi if he knew i was so hopelessly in love wif him..haha..well, veri soon we became good frens n the two of us always like to suan1 each other alot..veri fun den cos we always laugh together..den i deduced tt he was only treatin mi as a buddy cos 1) he dun treat mi like a girl, 2) there was once he showed mi the girl he liked before when we were together in SIM..i mean, if u like someone u wun point out someone u like previously rite? n later he told mi all abt the girls whom he like n those who like him when i pretend to be kaypo..quite sad at tt point den..cos i was quite confirmed he wun like mi..which was true at tt time lah..hee..

this good-buddies scenario ended one day when ahbear joined us for a badminton session on the 24th of june if i'm not wrong..cpt tiger told mi he suddenly felt jealously when he saw mi playin wif ahbear..haha..den he realised he liked mi..den he confessed abt this on 29th june n we became a couple on the 30th june..\(^o,^)/

tt's the summary of our story..we might hav known each other for only three mths before we got attached but both of us actually spent quite a big amount of time together durin that period of time..after his exams (4th june) we actually meet up at least every alternate day! haha..neber knew i was such a scheming girl rite (cos either turtle or i took the initiative to gather everyone)..haha..to tell the truth i wasn't hopin for anythin to happen between us cos i tot it was impossible for him to like mi cos he is a veri eligible bachelor..so my expectations weren't high..n when he confessed he gave mi the shock of my life cos i can't feel tt he like mi or wat..even juz the day before he confessed, my frens manage to convince mi tt he wun like mi one..haha..but human count cannot be compared to heaven count (ren2 suan4 bu4 ru2 tian1 suan4), we had a happy endin..well, thru' this i can tell u tt it's good not to set ur expectations too high sometimes, cos the higher ur hope is, the heavier u'll fall if things din turn out the way u wan to..:)

may all of u find the one u really luv soon, n for those who r attached, remember this..

"In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it don't ever let go, the chance might never come your way again." :)

last but not least, here is a pic of cpt tiger n mi taken at chinatown food centre..i know alot of u hav seen this before but since this is the photo cpt tiger displayed on his desk, it shall be the first photo i display here too..*smiles*

*smiles*

how impt do u tink it is for someone to smile? to mi, a smile means alot of things..it can mean that u r happy being wif mi, u r feelin good, u r in a lovin mood, u feel that u r being loved, n lotsa other stuff..in a few words:

U R HAPPY!! :)

i believe pple who knows mi know that i smile alot..to the extent that i might be a crazy girl to them..so if i dun smile, pple will tink somethin is wrong wif mi, or i am troubled..sometimes it's true, but sometimes it's not..anyway, this is not really the issue here..due to my smiley personality, i will tend to tink that if pple dun smile, i will feel awkward..esp pple i love..i am greatly affected by their moods..it'll be worst if they keep on sighin..wah, makes mi feel like sighin too..haha..n most imptly, i will wonder if it is really so terrible being wif me ard..i like to make pple happy! so if u wan mi to be happy, juz give mi a smile n i'll be contented. :)



i hav a fren who keeps on sighin these few days..let's call him gingercat. i dunno wat's wrong wif gingercat nowadays but he seems unhappy..n he's gettin a teeny bit impatient wif mi in terms of replyin my questions or tokin to mi..it hurts mi when he does tt..actually i will like to share his unhappiness n i dun mind listenin rather den him ignorin mi, but den again, men go into their caves when they r troubled..so i shld know y he is behavin like this..hmm..i know lah, but it still hurts to see him so unhappy..women so troublesome rite..haha..weather nowadays veri bad..veri veri hot..n i know gingercat is quite pek chek over this cos he can't stand heat..try to bear wif it ok? dun let the heat control u..let u control wat it does to u..hee..mind over body..mind over body..imagine u r in an ice cave..mind over body..=p

today mi n cpt tiger discovered how to act like an octopus..haha..

materials: both hands n ur face.

instructions:

1) pretend u r goin to kiss someone.
2) make sure lips stay in that shape. move it as if u r kissin if u wan to.
3) fingers pointin down to the floor, knuckles bent at 90 degrees n bring them near your chin.
4) wiggle your fingers.
5) DONE!

haha..so did u try the stunt? i know veri childish lah, but we got to be young at heart rite? ermm..n cpt tiger has a way to distinguish between male n female octopus..haha..but not to be disclosed over here..but i can say his heart is damn young man! =p

lastly, how's my blog lookin? better den last time rite? hee..i will try to improve on it..hav been always quite interested in html..when i finish my thesis i goin to improve on it..now tryin to figure out how to upload pics..catch no ball though..i hav added a tagboard on my blog..feel free to comment abt anythin under the sun! :)

Happy 2004!!! (",)

happy new year! so fast another yr has passed..hee..may it be a good one ahead for my family n all my frens..:)

quite tired now actually..reached home at eleven-plus after spendin the new yr at cpt tiger's house..we din go anywhere..played gunbound when everyone was countin down for the new year..hee..i tried playin the game too..but i was lousy..got to practise somemore! we were expectin the ships across his house to fire off the red red kind of fireworks+horn at the exact dot of twelve but nothin happened..haha..mayb no ships there last nite..oh, btw cpt tiger's house overlook the pandan reservoir n some industrial places where it's always veri pretty at nite cos the lights look like stars..n we saw somethin like an UFO last nite too..dunno how long it had been there liao but none of us has noticed it before..n damn! ahbear called today n mentioned tt explanade got fantastic fireworks..too bad i din get to see it..he's a cuckoo oso..could hav send mi a simple msg mah! haha..anyway lai2 ri4 fang1 chang2..i'm sure i'll get to see some beautiful fireworks soon wif cpt tiger..hmm..i tink mayb on chinese new yr's eve? =p

today was a veri hot day..cpt tiger n i were almost cooked..literally..haha..in the end he had to lie on the floor cos it's coolest there..today for breakfast, he fed mi two pieces of corn bread n two bananas..for lunch, we ate home-cooked pasta wif onion+corn+pea egg..den for dinner he ate black pepper beef rice n i ate yi4 mian4..wow! the black pepper beef rice was fantastic! nicest i can ever recall..beef is tender n nice, taste like vension, black pepper was spicy enuff, combined wif capsicum n red chilli..yum yum..from today onwards if we goin to da2 bao1 at his house i'm goin to eat tt! haha..but a bit expensive..4 bucks..oh, if anyone of u wanna try tt, it's at a coffee shop at teban gardens..tomolo i ask cpt tiger abt the address den i post it up here k..n guess wat? cpt tiger bought green tea ice-cream for mi as dessert! the walls one..i always kao4 beh3 say i wanna eat it whenever the tv ad appears..haha..i finally get to eat it today..thank u tiger! review: it's quite nice, green tea flavour was quite authentic n strong, though the vanila part was slightly too sweet(to mi, but i dun tink regular ice-cream eaters will find the vanilla any different from all the other walls ice-cream)..try it! :)

today mel(cpt tiger's chinchilla) was veri funny..she snatched a prune n refused to let go! haha..veri funny cos the prune was like a super big raisin to her n i tink she muz b feelin veri excited..greedy gal..tink she was veri hot too..i suggested to shave her hair but well, cpt tiger objected..haha..but wat if one day she genna heat stroke?..*touch wood touch wood!* i love mel..=p

*yawns* too tired to write abt my feelings towards certain issues..tomolo den continue..hee..goodnite! :)